So, my life took a dramatic turn recently. An MRI scan investigating my chronic back pain picked up a dangerously displaced disc pressing on some vital nerves…
I wish you could see my MRI images, black and white x-rays showing horizontal and vertical cross-sections of my spine. Every single medical professional that laid eyes on them reacted the same way. Basically with a “Uh-oh. That’s got to go”. I suddenly felt justified for needing all those pain killers, and relieved that the docs were in agreement about what procedure would fix it. But terrified to learn that my back wasn’t getting any better by itself, and that the procedure necessary was spinal surgery. Stat.
The scariest part was that the busted disc was damaging nerves that control not just my legs, but bladder and bowel function too. Left unchecked I was facing eventual numbness and paralysis of crucial parts. Luckily I live in a country with a National Health Service that wasn’t about to let that happen. After the MRI everything just kicked into action; my local hospital sent me to see the Spinal team at the specialist hospital at Belfast and I had an appointment for surgery within a week after that.
It’s all happened so fast my head is still spinning. I didn’t get long enough to panic. So it’s only hitting me now post- op what a serious and potentially life threatening procedure I’ve just been though, with some very real negative consequences had anything gone wrong. The emotional roller-coaster is very real, I’m crying one minute and dancing the next. But I live to tell the tale my friend, and that is my prize.
A quick shout out to all those kindly showing support and telling me I’m brave, I love you all! Friends and family have rallied round, and distance hasn’t seemed to matter, for that I’m extremely grateful. I also couldn’t have got through this without the calming, sage words of @ch_pearson who went through a similar op her self not so very long ago. Knowing someone I know and love came through this the better for it helps no-end.
I wish you all a lovely week ahead. I’ll be resting up and taking care of myself. I suggest you do similar. And don’t forget to make hay while the sun shines, because none of us , not one, have any idea of how long we’ve got left ….